Tuesday, June 19, 2018

Starting My Journey

Let me introduce myself to you. I am a 45 year old wife, mother, and librarian.  I am a fairly sendentary person. I am active around the house and at work but do no exercise.  I just don't like it.  I don't even like doing active things with my kids and family.  I would prefer to go to a movie or watch them do the activities.  I have to force myself to participate in order to make the memories and build the family bond. Yep, mom of the year right here!

All of my life my weight and self image has been a focus and struggle.  My adolescents and adulthood has consisted of one diet after another.  There are some things I have found to be truly helpful such as logging what I eat and how many calories I am eating.  I have had gastric bypass and been somewhat successful.  My total weight loss was 100 pounds.  I have only gained 20 back and that was over the course of 10 years.  I may have gained that regardless of the surgery because I hit the damned 40's.  I am so done with dieting.  I'm sick of it.  The yo yo has crashed and burned.  My life has revolved around food either uncontrollable eating it or strict restrictions of it. This is it!  Time to make some real changes.

So, I'm starting a mindful eating and healthy habits journey.  I have done some research and identified the changes I want to make.  Obviously, I won't make all the changes at one time.  It will be a slower process than a diet, but isn't that the point.  My end goal is not weight loss, it is healthy eating habits.  Weight loss will hopefully be one of the bonus perks of learning to listen to my body. I hate the idea of having rules.  I want to embrace the idea that I am really changing my habits. Here is the list of habits I feel I need to focus on in order to change my relationship with food.

My Habits:

  • Only eat when physically hungry
  • Really experience my food using all 5 senses
  • Eat without distractions
  • Eat slowly
  • Stop when I'm only 80% full 
  • Choose foods that satisfy my nutritional needs
  • Give up the guilt
Sounds reasonable, right?!? 

Starting weight: 167

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